Thoughts On a Bad Trip

am i drunk?

why is this hitting me so hard

it’s like i’m drunk

…no, worse

spinning. not the good kind.

i can’t hold my flashlight

blow out the candle, you’ll step on it

 

something’s wrong

something bad is happening

really bad, really

i shouldn’t feel this

 

why would You do this

stop. stop

is it because i’m gay?

i’ll stop being gay

i don’t like this

God, i won’t stop being gay

oh God oh God oh God

i’m gonna go to hell

i’m gonna die and

i’m gonna go to hell and

it’s because i never thought

this would happen to me

 

i need an ambulance… no

i need an ambulance

something…

i’ll die if they don’t help

i’ll die if they help

i’ll die

 

tell mom and dad

no, they’ll get mad

no, i’ll die

i can’t die… i can’t do that,

i can’t die.

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